The first person that I met must not be the last person that
I really want. As same as the person that I called my first love. The prince
that makes me know what is the meaning of love. When my heart beat so fast, and
this is the first time in my life. It feels like very freak, strange, and I can
not guess ,what happened in my soul.
First love, puppy love, or whatever
everyone say about that is the time that I felt very confuse about what happen
with me. When I felt very embarrassed while he was looking at me, when I waste many
time just for waiting he walk in front of me, and the other stupid thing. And
the most annoyed something that I must do at that time, I must be calm when I
having chit-chat with him. It was very difficult for me, because as I know he
always make my heart want to go out from my chest.
Yaps, he is the first. The first
person that can make me waste a lot of my time just for thinking about him, the
first person that make me smile without a reason, and the others crazy thing.
He likes a prince with a small body, white skin, and a warm smile on his face
make he looks very cute. He is the boy that I called my “puppy love”.
“Dear, would you be my girlfriend?”
this is the sentence that still dancing in my head during the last year. I got
my first love when I become an elementary school student. Yes, this is very
early for the girl likes me. But it is too hard to forget it. There is no
moment that really special, there is also nothing for save. But, it is
something that we called first love. What will they do in twelve years old?
What will they give while their money just enough for themselves? There is nothing.
****
Sometimes I miss something that I
called it my puppy love. Because when I was graduated from my elementary
school, I never met with him again. I thought it was seven years ago when the
last time I met him. I did not know it will be the last for us. And until today
there was no communication between us. I
thought he is very far from me. I also thought I could not meet with him
anymore.
“Hey Van, what do you thinking
about? “ I was shocked by someone that come behind of me
“Ouh,, nothing.” I answered her
“ Don’t be lie to me” she smile at
me
“ Okey, I can’t lie to you Jessy”
“So, will you tell me about that?” she
asked me again
“ I just remember about my puppy
love” my face look so shy
“Really? Who is that? May I know?
Why don’t you tell me about him?”
“Come on Jessy, he just my puppy
love, its not too important “ I explained to her
“Come on Vanda, I just curious about
him. I just want to know. Am I wrong?”
“ Not at all, but I wanna forget him, so how can I forget him if
you always ask him to me?” I answered
“Okey,, tell me who is that and I
will not ask to you again, deal?”
“ Oh my God, okey he is my senior
when I was in elementary school. Is that clear?”
“ So, where is he now?” Jessy asked
me again
“ You promise if I tell you about
him, you won’t ask me again. Am I right? So why do you ask me? “
“I don’t think so,” she smile at me
Jessy is my friendship, close
friend, and whatever. She always want to know everything in my life. She always
curious about everything. But I never angry with her. I thought it was the
meaning of friendship. Sometimes, I spent a lot of my time just for chit-chat
with her. But I did not think it waste my time. Because when I together with
her I felt happy, and all of my sadness was gone. Although sometimes she was
very annoying, but I enjoy it.
Honestly she is my new friend in my university. Because I am
a new university student here. Now I study in Ganesha University of Education,
language and art faculty, in English education department. Now, Jessy is my
classmate. She is smart and has a good personality. She is pretty, cheerful,
and easy going person. That is make me comfort with her. Because we have the same personality and character.
In everyday I go to campus with Jessy because her boarding
house is near from me. So we can go to campus together. Today, I go to Jessy’s boarding
house for making homework together. I think She is smarter than me, so she will
teach me.
“Jess, what is the meaning of this word? I’m not understand,
can you explain it to me?”
“Uhmm,, wait a moment Van, I’ll check my dictionary” she
said to me
“ Oh my God, I left my dictionary in campus. Can you take it
for me? Because as you know I’m not feeling well today” Jessy looks so panic
“ Okey dear, I’ll take it now.”
I go to campus immediately by my motorcycle. And after
arriving in campus I left my motorcycle in the parking area. I go to our last
class today and look for Jessy’s dictionary. But I can not find that. Suddenly,
my phone ring.
“Hello,,” I said
“Yes, I’m sorry Van” it is like Jessy’s sound
“What a matter Jessy? “ I feel little bit confuse
“ I found my dictionary in my selves, I forget it. I’m sorry
Van” she said
“ Errrgghh,,, What the hell! I’m going to eat you Jessy” I
said to her
“ Haha,, I’m really sorry my Dear”
“ Yeah,,” I hang up the phone
Then, I back to the parking area. But suddenly i look
someone on my motorcycle. I try to tell him if I want to go out by my
motorcycle
“ Excuse me, this is my motorcycle, right? I wanna go out” I
said to him
“ Oh,, I’m sorry. I just take a rest for a while here,
because I am really tired. “ said him
Suddenly, my heart beat so fast when I looked at his face.
Oh my God, my puppy love. Is it a dream? No Van, it is not a dream, but it just
like a dream. Wake up Vanda, wake up! I can not say anything .
Then he said “ Excuse me, “
“ You are Agung, am I right?” I ask to him
“ Yes, how can you know my name?” he looks very confuse
“ Agung, I am Vanda. Don’t you remember me?”
“ Are you sure? Oh my God. Vanda? You look more beautiful
now”
“ Ouh,, thank you. Long time no see. Have you been married?”
“ Uhmm,, are you joking me? Not at all. How about you?”
“ Uhm, I’m single right now. By the way what is your
department here?”
“ I study art here, as you know I like painting, and I love
art. Haha” he laugh
“ Yeah,, I know that. Do you remember when we were an elementary
school? I always look at your painting. Right? “ I smile to him
“Haha,, uhmm by the way tomorrow my department will show our
painting here. Don’t forget to come, okey?”
“ Ohh,, I’ll be glad for that. By the way I must go now. See
you tomorrow!”
I leave him over there and go to Jessy’s boarding house.
Honestly, I can not believe if I can meet with him in the same faculty. It
still like dream for me. And in everyday I will meet with him. I do not know
how it feel. Is it good or bad. But right now, I am still confused with my
feeling.
“Jessy, can you guess what happen today? I meet with someone
in campus!” I look very glad
“Who? Security, right? Haha” she jokes me
“ Ergggh,, I met with my puppy love. Can you believe that? I
met with him in campus. Our campus Jessy!”
“ Are you sure? Or you just lie to me?” she can not believe
me
“Ouh,, I’m sure. “ I make it sure
“ And tomorrow he invite me for come to his department’s
exhibition”
“Really? That’s sounds good”
“Yes, very good I think” I smile to her
*****
From this moment he and I always meet in the parking area
under a big tree there and having a short chit-chat. Sometimes we also having
lunch together during waiting for the next class. Or talking about my day to
him in my spare time in campus. Honestly, he looks little bit different than he
was in elementary school. He looks funnier than before. As I know he is a calm
person, and ashamed person. But I can not see it right now.
“Van, you look very different today, something happened with
you?” he asked to me
“ Uhmm, no. Not at all” I answered
“ Have you had lunch today?” he asked me again
“ Yes of course. uhmm Agung, by the way I must go now . I
wanna meet up with Jessy”
“Okey, take care of yourself Van, you look not well today”
Actually , I just afraid if I will fall in love with him
again. I do not know why I am feeling afraid like now. I just think he is not
as same as my puppy love in my elementary school. I think he is very different.
“Jess, I think he is different” I said
“ Come on Vanda, every people in the world will change. You
must not feel afraid about that”
“But you don’t understand how it feel Jessy”
“ Yeah, I know. But you do not need sad like that. Don’t
worry dear, everything will be fine” said jessy to me
“ Uhhmm,, have you eaten? I wanna go to canteen. Will you go
with me Van?”
“yeah,, “
Jessy always can omitted my sadness. Yes, she is a great
friend that I ever had. Then, I go to
canteen with her. But suddenly I see something that I can not believe in front
of us. I see someone that I really know hug a girl while he was holding a
cigarette in his finger. Yes he is Agung my puppy love.
“ Are you okey Van?” Jessy asked to me
“ Don’t worry Jess, I already know it will be happen “
And from that moment, I never meet up with him again. But if
suddenly I meet him, I just smile to him and regard nothing something happened
with us. And from that moment also, Agung my puppy love will still be my puppy
love. It will not be change as he change his life. Maybe in the past he is something
for me, but now he is nothing. I do not know why the love disappear so fast.
*****
“Ladies and gentlemen, now we will know who is the winner of
this short story contest , the name is Vanda Riani . For Vanda, please come on
this stage.”
“Van, you win!” said jessy to me
“What? What did you say? “ I asked to my friend
“ The host call your name, don’t you hear that? “
“Are you sure, I can’t believe that.”
“ If you can’t believe the situation, I hope you believe in
me. Okey? “ Jessy smile to me.
Then, I go to the stage for accept my achievement . The host
asked me to give short speech about my short story.
“For the first, I want to thanks to someone that gave me the
inspiration for this short story. Honestly, this is my first love that I never
forget. Maybe he is not the right person , but I never disappointed with him.
Because he teach me that changes must be done. And I will find someone that I
will love him in my life. Okay, I think that is enough. Thank you for a lot
all” my smile represent all of my feeling.
And now I know that Jessy is right, everything will be fine.
I just need to believe with my self and
believe with the God’s present. Everything will be amazing in it’s time. This is not the end of my story, because I
will make a new story in the future.
The end
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